Thanks everyone. Just took my girls and 3 neighbor girls to McD's playland. I practically showered them in anti-bacterial lotion when they got in the car (no sick babies for Christmas!!).

I called my best friend today and opened up about everything. She knew we were in trouble, but nothing about OW. She was crying on the phone while checking out of Target. That's my girl. \:\) We are going to try to get together tonight. I don't want to be here when H comes home from work, and getting ready for his date. Can't figure out how to do it, because he will lose it if I have the girls out somewhere.

OW's H called to check on me today, I was crying at the time, but settled down. OW had the nerve to yell at her H when she found out he called me. Said "See what you did? You went and hurt LWB even more". WTF? OW's H apologized today for being 'selfish' and calling and venting to me. I told him I had no regrets about him calling, and he does what H doesn't do for me, keeps me out of th dark. I want him to call about these things. Not forever, because like yoyo fell into, the trap of being notified about everything can be dangerous.

I did tell OW's H that my H will not be coming home tonight.

I am at peace with the girls, we are having a nice day. Coming here on and off (and getting lovely emails!) is really helping.