Please help--Need advice!!!

[Patrick325]

Had a decent day yesterday. My W called me up and asked me to come over and help wrap gifts for the kids. I was worried that she was going to drop a bomb on me but she didn't. We wrapped and talked. She wasn't warm but I asked her how she was doing with her new contacts and getting ready for the Firemans test. She showed me everything she bought for the kids and I listened and commented. She always loved doing that...shopping and coming home and showing everything and what kind of a deal she got on it. It was fun for me because it reminded me of old times. I think she is spending more time with the neighbor though, I hate that part. She babysat his kids for him and is having my daughter babysit tonight. I don't know if he's gone or what but I don't even ask. It really drives me crazy because I want to know what she's doing but I know I shouldn't ask. This morning I woke up and had this feeling of doubt in my mind that I really love her. I don't dream about her anymore...but during the day I think about her all the time. Part of it is this worrying about another man. I don't know if I can handle it and go back to her. I am so scared I am going to find out that she slept with someone and I will have to quit! I pray to God every night that she will stay true to me. But after hearing all this stuff about MLC I don't know if she will.