Well FLTC My wish has been granted. THe bad guys are not safe. I do not think I'd join the muj in your AO.
I agree while one partner is harboring resentment for deeds years past and has long since given up they perform a slash an burn tatic that fries their spouse, kids, and their own futures.
When I tried for 1.5 yrs to patch my marriage and turn around and got to the point you were at I unloaded verbally on my X while during my workup. Complaints were similar but not exact. Anyway a Few months later I got the dear john while incountry. Not to say I was the perfect H.
Wish I knew what to say to you but we do read you lima charlie.
"All I want is a weeks pay for a day's work" Steve Martin