Last night, as I was falling asleep (around 1am) OW's H called my cell phone. As part of his GAL (he went on a date! OMG am I the only one that doesn't date while married in St. Louis?) he was out last night and when he pulled up to his house, MY husband was sitting outside. In his car. He wasn't inside the house, but they were talking on the phone. The word 'pathetic' comes to my mind. OW's H was very upset, trying not to be worried about the whole OW/my H thing, but hated that he was there, in front of the house where his kids live. I agreed. We talked until my H got home.
I lost it on him, told him how disrespectful he is being to everyone. So many hateful things were said between us. I cried hard, screamed, you name it. I said some things I have wanted to say for a long time. OW and H are basically going on a date tonight, yep, that's right. I told H not to come home tonight and he was fine with that. But he began on his rant about selling the house. We talked about getting lawyers or a mediator, which we will look into next week.
I am empty. Broken. How can I function tonight knowing they are together? I lived in the dark all summer, this will be the first time I *know* they are together. Unbelievable that this is my life. I am so lost. I have the kids all day, so I won't be on here that much, but will be back when they are asleep tonight. I just came on to feel less...alone, I suppose.
I was so hoping to chug through Christmas with good spirits between H and I, now that hope is lost.
