Well the evening passes with no contact with WAW on 11-year anniversary...big surprise. Was doing great today until relative called to asked how I was doing. Dropped my PMA a bit. I have plans to go to a B-Day party tonight. Shopping for 5D in the morning.
Vehicle is broke, I know what is wrong and it'll cost c-note+. Good time for that with holidays and all. Funny how I have saved a good bit of money that could be used to build the dreams of life for WAW, 5D, and myself but know that WAW would like nothing more than for me to blow it on a big D.
I know darkness is my only chance. She'll come back...just a ton of time, 180's, and for me to GAL. I must find happiness that is not reliant on her. This will work...I know it will. And I know I can.
