Catfan, you continue to have the thoughts that you are deluding yourself because you haven't REALLY turned it over to God as you said you would do. Once you turn it over to God, it's out of your hands, and you will have a peace that HE'S in control now. Easier said than done, I know. And, once you turn it over to God, it's really easy to snatch it back up, because we're impatient, or want to take control ourselves. You have a lot of positives and your DB'ing really well. As for the outcome, leave that to God. And trust that he can turn the tide in any direction, and that he cares about you.
Me 36 Husband 35 D5 S2 separated: 10/29/07-present Served divorce papers 1/22/09 "When the world gives out beneath your feet, it is time to learn how to fly."
