I am trying to give unconditionally but that is very tough.
the reason, I believe, there is no psyical intimacy is she {and she re-affirms this} just does't feel attractive to herself. she has put on weight she fought for years to lose. she says she feels worthless. When she looks in the mirror all she sees is wrinkles and greying hair. she's not worked for 7 years. she was a stay at home mom and now the kids are older 6+3 so she just started a job. the stay at home mom life is over. I thought, and She thought, getting a job and getting out of the house would be good for her as she was cooped up at home with two very demanding kids all day. I try, probably too hard, to show my love for her. seems like my entire days and nights are filled with "how or what can I do now for her"? I don't believe I'm an angel who gets trampled over. she still 1/2heartely kisses me. she tells me ILY. and she continues to say it has Nothing to do with ME. "it's not about YOU" "it's something I am going thru" "What don't you understand about that"? she demands her space in bed. NO snuggling, heck hardly touching. Sex is completely out of the question. In fact a sure fire way to start a fight is to ask for sex. I feel like she just doesn't even want to be arround ME. and Yes, I get pissy and pouty about this, which I Know only makes it worse.
If this has "nothing to do with me". Why does it feel like I bear the grunt of the punishment for "THIS"...??
It is very discouraging and I constantly question my self worth. Whats Wrong With Me? why is she not attracted to me. All I feel is rejection. again and again. leave me alone. All I want is some space when I sleep. Stop smothering me. I'm not the intimate type.
