I do appreciate everyones honesty and directness. It is something that I am wrestling with very much. After all the wedding preparations and $$ and the love we 'used' to have I feel like I should at least give it a fair chance. Weve only been married for about 6 weeks, and while things arent so peachy now, I would always wonder 'what-if' if I dont at least give it some time, work, comittment and patience. It is true that I am not happy in this relationship anymore. will that change? I dont know. Will she change? I dont know. She did get a new prescription for BC pills yesterday, so I am hoping that makes a difference. On a side note, I was a little annoyed last night because as were laying on the couch she put her feet in my lap and wiggled her feet as a signal for me to rub them. I used to rub them a lot because she likes it and its relaxing for her. I havent lately because im resentful of her to plop them in my lap and EXPECT me to do it. Especially when she cant seem to reciprocate MY needs, wants, desires. She got a little irritated that I was being uncooperative and asked me how come im not sweet to her anymore. I just sat there quietly and thought to myself - "Youve got to be kidding me right? You cant even kiss me passionately on my birthday and you want a foot massage? WOW" Anyways, thanks for letting me vent. Ill be on the boards still, but I am comitted to giving this at the least 6 months max 1 yr.
