Well, today is my wedding anniversary. We would be x-mas shopping/celebrating this evening if ...
I did not text WAW about maintaining 4 day rotation through holidays, since it just works out the way we had already agreed. I might tomorrow. But I cannot contact her today. Just don't see how contacting her on our anniversary is good if she is wanting a D.
Kind of funny, woke up this morning over and not hurt about how angry, irrational, etc..WAW was 2 days ago. Makes me wonder how long it will take for her.
Won't see WAW until x-mas eve 8:00pm. She will open 5D gifts and then who knows. I've thought to take 5D to WAW's for a bit x-mas morning. This is probably a bad idea but it would mean a lot to WAW to see 5D. Any gesture, no matter how nice, probably pursuing and unwanted...who knows...maybe she'll give me a clue x-mas eve.
5D and I decorated x-mas stockings last night. We used glitter glue, beads, etc...It was a blast. We did make one for Mommy so 5D could put her gifts to WAW inside.
During prayers last night, 5D said she had a special prayer that she was saving for when she was with WAW(next 4 days). I am certain she is going to say something like "I want my Daddy to come home". She told me on the way to school that she wanted to stay with me. Even asked why she couldn't. All I could say is it's Mommy's turn, she misses you too, and I will miss you everyday. She said I already miss you and I want to stay with you Daddy. Just rips your heart out.
