Help! Need your advice re: Christmas

[Firekeeper]

Jeff - well, yes, you are not...
but...
thank you)

you know, Jeff, i didn't have any of your comments yesterday(
they appeared only this morning. it's weird. so if you thought that i was ignoring you - i was, because i didn't know that you were there

i am hesitant with the idea of our "first thought being often the good one" - because it is difficult to discern if it came up first because of a habit or it is our intuition speaking. still not sure about the tipping point between flexibility and jumping too high

point 1 is to the point) i do tend to overstress myself) as it is now

and i did call my h and made an offer to be w/us in nyc. i do not if he would be able or he would want to follow through on it but it felt good after that

altho i do not know how he interpreted that - if he felt pressured or it was a positive reinforcement of his decision to separate w/ow - or may be all of the above)

oh, well)