still trying...update

[LuvMyHusband]

Hi everyone,
I'm up to my ears preparing for Christmas. Spoke to H on the phone. He's planning on arriving on Sunday. The kids and I were hoping for Saturday. He hasn't been here since the Sunday after Thanksgiving.

I feel frustrated with him that he doesn't seem to be bending an inch. I have been keeping a PMA regardless of what he does or says, well, atleast when I'm talking to him I do. I seem to bounce back quicker now. I don't know if he's staying through New Year's Eve. I hope so. I am not going to ask though.

He told me today that he would prefer I not call his parents house. To either text him or call his cell, if he doesn't answer to leave a v/m. I feel like he is shutting another door on me. I will honor his request but it I feel hurt by it. It seems like the harder I try, the more he shuts down or shuts the door. I have no idea what his time here will be like but I feel like he has really shut the door on me. Total standstill.