CVA - Have I Done Everything...No!

[Not Much Left]

So as expected, WC has backed completely away. She said a lot of very, very nice things to me Monday night when we went out, then Tuesday freaks and says she is very uncomfortable with me being married. Says she will be there for me if we get divorced. Has sent me a couple of nice emails since but, rats.

I have been doing a lot of thinking. You guessed it, "do i really want my W back given I know there are women out there who would most certainly give me more affection...not just sex, i mean, more affection." At this point, there would have to be a monumental change in attitude from W for me to go "Oh sure, this is great, yippy, more of the same, let me go through the rest of my life thinking "what if", let me be the one to iniitiate everything, let me be do all the work, etc, etc, etc."

I know it would be best for my kids and the grass is not greener, but damn, when you finally get a glimpse of life without a W who has not wanted you for a long time and at least a mini glimpse of one that does, it really makes you stop and think, "What the Hell am I doing?"

Love to hear from my friends on this one. Nomo, I already know what your gonna say!

C