I know you are right Corri. Just because he can't step out of his comfort zone doesn't mean I shouldn't. So Why Not is indeed the question. I'm still trying to figure that one out. Is it because I'm really still angry at him and why should I give him what he wants? Is it because I'm just selfish and want things my way? Is it because....well, I could come up with all sorts of reasons but none of them are excuses. It is really still messing with my mind how great the sex was with the Alpha Soldier Guy. That's the truth. I can't help but think....what if... I know that is wrong on many levels but it's in this crazy head of mine. I've been so good too about distracting myself from it all but it Always comes back into my head. Probably because I can't figure out the sexual stuff with H. It's a catch-22. Ugh
