well, all hell broke loose, it is over and done

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Im blushing now :P you all are too kind. I prob am still in the shock state and haven't moved down to the other 4 stages, or mercifully God is giving me that same merciful numbness he gave me when I had to leave my mom to live with my dad.

I think he has calmed now enough not to hurt himself, right now he is in punishing self mode and still half coherent and not believing he is so close to loosing his family.

I don't know what kind of reasurance he can give me that he hasn't give me last time (or whatever passed for reasurance). I told him that, and still it is not a sure thing what I'll do, he needs to shape up before we think of what to do next.

Ow threatened to screw him up at work if he didnt' talk to her 1 more time, they ended it, I heard it, I was on speaker phone.

He was supposed to stay at his mom's but 5min ago he came home, I'm not throwing him out, for tonight he's sleeping on the sofa, he's a wreck and still repeats how he doesn't know what to do or how to feel and that he hurts.
Anyways, we are still going to C, im trying to think how he can live elsewhere and not affect our finances, I guess that is impossible. We'll se what happens at C tomorrow, he does need more help than I can ever offer like Sara said.

Thank you all for walking by my side)))))))))))))))))