One foot in front of the other....

[NoCodeBlues]

H4C,

I am sorry -- I can only imagine what you're going through (although I am very likely going to find out soon enough). Numb is how I would probably feel -- I guess you are succeeding in your detachment.

Stay strong, brother. New doors are opening for you. One step in front of the other.

[Hurtin4certain]

Thanks for all your support guys.. I really appreciate it.

My W should get her summons or whatever its called in the mail within 2 days. I have no idea what to expect from her, perhaps she will just sign it and return it? Perhaps she will call me and cuss me to high heaven?

Ive learned to expect the unexpected with her, never know what you're going to get. One day she's the biggest sweetheart and the next day its like Im responsible for everything wrong in this world.

Im also curious what she will think of me... will she respect me for not tolerating her and OM? Will she not even care? Will she start to realize that perhaps she is making the biggest mistake of her life? Will she be glad I filed? Will this only push her into the arms of her OM?

[Michael Mc C]

Im also curious what she will think of me... will she respect me for not tolerating her and OM? Will she not even care? Will she start to realize that perhaps she is making the biggest mistake of her life? Will she be glad I filed? Will this only push her into the arms of her OM?

If only there was a way to know this! I wouldn't even hazard a guess at this point. If I filed I know my W would be relieved. It would be the submission she's been hoping for.

[Hurtin4certain]

So... Im a little nervous today. My mind keeps racing trying to determine what to expect from my W. She will be served here in the next few days. :-(

I still cant believe she willingly chose OM over me, Im not perfect but Ive always been faithful, loyal and willing to do anything for my W. In fact, it was always me watching our D when she was a baby so W could go out drinking with friends. I guess my self esteem is shot because I cant see why she would leave someone like me.

[Hurtin4certain]

UNBELIEVABLE!!!!

My W just called me after exchanging D with my mom. She was in tears and said she was sad this was our 1st Xmas apart. She then kept telling me she is sorry but wont tell me what for.

She hasnt even gotten the papers yet!!!

Im so confused... she left me for OM, I filed, she calls me crying.

I told her she was always more than welcome to stop by for Xmas if she wanted to.

SOMEONE LET ME OFF THIS ROLLER COASTER!!!!

[Hurtin4certain]

FOr those of you that need a smile (and a laugh):

http://www.ebaumsworld.com/video/watch/62662/

Enjoy!

[Michael Mc C]

Judging by my wife's reaction when we physically separated a number of years ago I imagine that your wife is truly upset about not being with you for Christmas.

My wife cried as she was walking out the door back then. I asked her why she was crying if she was so adamant about leaving. She said "We have so many memories here, this is the house you lived in when we first met 16 years ago. It hurts to walk away from all of that."

It makes sense. As easy as they seem to make it look there has to be a lot of turmoil going on inside - at least at certain times of the year. I'm sure she's dealing with a lot of guilt right now as well.

[Hurtin4certain]

Wife IM'd me today:

Her (11:25:09 AM): Hey
Me (11:27:02 AM): Hey Chanek
Her (11:25:34 AM): How was Lauryn yesterday
Me (11:27:21 AM): really good
Her (11:26:09 AM): Well that is good. I talked to her this morning she said she was doing well.. that she felt pain because she missed me. Made me sad.
Me (11:27:59 AM): Yeah
Me (11:28:04 AM): doesnt surprise me
Her (11:26:44 AM): I was worried about her because she saw how upset I was yesterday. I was excited for her but still upset
Her (11:27:06 AM): I have a question for you
Me(11:28:48 AM): sure
Me (11:32:17 AM): ask away
Her (11:31:06 AM): Why is it that one minute it seems like I can talk to you about anything in the world. You can sooo be there for me.
Her (11:31:12 AM): The next minute it seems like you just hate my guts
Me (11:33:11 AM): I dont hate your guts but I have to protect myself... Im really hurt
Me (11:33:41 AM): But on the other hand, I know you are just doing things to make yourself happy, so I have to support you.
Me (11:34:19 AM): I dont think you understand how much I wanted to be with you
Her (11:33:01 AM):
Her (11:41:21 AM): I just wanted to ask. You remain on my mind a lot and I'm sorry that I hurt you, those were not my intentions.
Me (11:43:31 AM): I'll be ok Chanek... Im glad this happened now and not later
Her (11:57:16 AM): I have to run. I will talk to you later

I dont think she has been served with papers yet, should be today. Once again, Im confused as all get out.

She cusses me out and then wants me to listen to her? She says it seems like I hate her guts (Ive been dark)?

This woman has lost her mind!

[Michael Mc C]

Wow H4C. I'm not sure what to say about this. I think you handled this well.

What was your intention with the comment about wanting to be with her? Is that in general or was there something specific you were referring to?

The fact that she sees you as supportive one moment and then hating her the next is a bit odd. It could be that she is finally starting to feel what it's like to be on this roller coaster too. It's not easy doing what we're trying to do.

[LL44]

Has she gotten the papers yet?

She is trying to read you, figure you out. Its her own little rollercoaster.....