Hey B, Don't really know if I can add anything different that anyone else. I agree it's a good thing you didn't send it, but probably a really good thing you wrote it.
It must be hard for you after seeing so many positives to now be in this dark period of no contact. Hang in there though, you sound really good. J~
M 35 H 29 M 4 yrs T 9 yrs D 3 S born 10/19/07 Bomb 09/10/07 Separated next day OW - broke up and H moved out 09/07/08 Status - still figuring this out