I'm not going to take it the wrong way, but I am wondering where that one came from. \:\)
My mother is actually not happy with this break up. It isn't convenient for her
That's just what I'm saying. Your mother liked your BF. I would probably be LD if I let my mother pick my BFs. Also, waiting until date #x to have sex is a rule a parent would make. It seems to me while you are having all those sexless dates you are necessarily repressing your ability to judge whether you are sexually attracted to a man while you concentrate on other factors mostly related to security. I, of course, have the opposite problem. I want to be sexually attracted to men so right away I start scanning away for anything sexy about a man which necessarily causes me to be more sexually aroused and round-heeled. If I can't find anything sexually attractive on date #1 I think it would be cruel to go on date #2 with the guy and lead him on. If I do find something sexually attractive on date #1 then I am horny as heck thinking about it by date #2.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver