Long and Bumpy Road 2be continued...

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I have to work on my PMA today. Not working well. I had a long night of tossing and turning. I am getting so big that I am not comforable anymore, plus my mind was in overdrive.

I kept thinking that I am truly doing this alone. H is not going to step up. I made an appointment for Jan. 14 to see an attorney regarding cs and my rights. Maybe that has made me sad. That it really is coming to this. I haven't asked H to pay for anything yet for baby. I have bought everything so far and it would be nice for him to pay for something, but I don't know if I should. Would that give him more say in her life?

Geez, you would think after 1 1/2 years of this back and forth bs, I would get a clue that this is who H is. He cannot do it. He cannot be a real man. I picture him with OW or whoever he is with. Does he forget us? Does he pretend like life is great?