You were all right...unfortunately...

[bombardier50]

Sara, amen to the validation thing. This thread is getting ridiculously long, but if you go back a bit, you'll see the naked picture part of my story. So the growing old thing is a big part of it, for sure. As is mid-life crisis, menopause, grandmotherhood, blah, blah, blah.

Choc, I hope she chooses me, of course. Why? I guess because I know that her best chance of being truly happy is by staying with me. If I ever come to the realization that that is no longer true, then I'll stop trying.

She had to work last night until about nine. She called me around seven. She wanted to remind me that she was working until nine, and that she needed to stop by the grocery store on the way home. Then she asked me how my day was. I told her that it was a long day, I was kinda whipped, and that I might be in bed when she gets home. Maybe it was my imagination, but I almost detected a hint of disappointment in her voice.

This morning I said goodbye, see ya later. She gave me a detailed rundown on her day and what time she would be home. She sounded a little down.

She has not talked to the OM in over 24 hours.

Yesterday, I think I started to let go of my fear a little...