Trying to Cope, but It's Too Hard

[stacy22]

I appreciate all your guys help. I told my husband that we both need some space, and he said he would give it, even though he thinks I'm trying to keep him from his girl. He makes me feel like anything I do is not going to be good enough, and I am brain washing her to hate him. I do know that both my daughter and I love him a lot and we are hoping that he will see the light very soon.

I can't imagine God would want this for the both of us. I have to tell myself everyday that God put us together why would he let my H tear it apart. My H has a purpose on this earth and I am know God put us together to fullfill that purpose together. I have been trying everything to keep me from thinking that he will never return. I hope that I am doing what is right. I hope that I am not telling myself to hold on so that I can be hurt more. I think that I am scared that his will is so strong he won't see what God wants him to see, but I guess that is like saying God is not powerful enough to make him see.

I have good days and bad days. On my good days my daughter seems to have bad days, and on my bad days she seems to be strong enough to help me get through it. It sucks that I have to let my daughter see me cry and grieve my husband like I do.

We pray everyday that God would change my husbands heart, and begin to see that his family is important to him. I ask God to bring my H closer to him, and as he gets closer to him he will get closer to his family, and want to come home. I have to remind myself to have faith in what God has for us, and to have faith that he does not want and he won't let my H divorce me.

Thank you again. I need to hear there is hope, and all the things I should do to help him fall in love with me again or realize that the love never really died. I just ask that you keep encourage me to stay strong and to keep having faith that he will wantingly return.