Things outside me are calm, inside me are stirring. Had an angry weekend. We have these dettached R conversations, like things are not happening to us, but with someone else. I just can't cope with the latest H's excuses and when he says his mistakes were just a "male thing". Didn't know if I laughed or cried when H gave a common friend that is divorcing, advice. Finally I was able to introduce to him my thoughts about how gender was not an excuse for character flaws.
Anyway, I've been busy and it's helpful. Decided to reconnect with some old friends I have lost contact with. Some of them was taken away by time, others by conflict.
It's been healing because I found out that thinking about them and getting their reponses shows that time passes by and make us forgive. I have decided to do that as one resolution for the next year. It's been an exercise to remind me this too shall pass.
