IC, where was I on the whole hockey thing? ...in the snowbank!
Where was I when you pretty much told your family to f*ck off? ...in the snowbank!
What do you do when say ohhh...lets say something is biting you..a bug. Some kind of bug is biting you on the back, on the neck, the arms, the legs...and it hurts! You can't seem to get away from it...hell, you don't really know what it is {except I told you it was a bug} Finally, this elusive thing lands on your hand...right in full view. What do you do? Do you stand there and analyze the f*ck out of it...maybe it bites you again...maybe it flies off and comes back and bites you in the azz...what? I tend to react and squash the bug! Sorry, that's how I am.
I've been playing hockey for a long, long time...it's been emotionally painfull for me...somethings been biting at me for a long time. Didn't know what it was, but it hurt. This last time I was out there skating and went off the ice to change...as I'm sitting in there taking off all the sh!t, it all came into clear view. I reacted, I squashed the bug. You've wanted me to shake this ghost...I DID! Sorry I didn't stop, spend hours or days or whatever..analyzing this thing to death with you - sorry, wrong guy! Not my style.
Sorry about my family thing. It wasn't something I had planned out, it was a reaction. A reaction to something that was said and to things that haven't been said or done for 20 years.
Originally Posted By: Miss IC
You tell me one thing and then you turn around and do what you want. I want to believe you, I really do but how do you think these things make me feel? No you haven't lied to me, but you haven't given me any inclination on these past things as to what's going on...until they happen.
What can I do to make you believe in me again?
No, I'm sure I haven't given you any inclination on a lot of things. A lot of who I am is built on reaction to a given situation, so most of the time I don't give myself any inclination..I just do it. I get praised by you for being spontenaous when it' something fun, well & good, but when it's not...I get the third degree.
