What exactly is it you want me to do? I wasn't up front with you about the cancer...I didn't know how to break that to you. I f*cked up!!! I'm sorry...please let it go. Please believe me when I tell you....I AM DOING FINE!!!!! I WILL tell you if things change.
I remember not too long ago, you were going round & round with me about me giving up...remember that? I'm not a surgeon...I can't cut open my leg and remove this, I have to rely on others for that. I can't give myself chemo...I have to rely on others for that. The ONLY thing I can do myself for myself is to prepare my mind, body & spirit the best way I know how. I'm sticking to the guidelines they set for me for diet & excercise....am I pushing it to the extreme? Yes...Why? Because I CAN! I FEEL good! Might not be the case in reality, but right now...in my mind, I'm winning! Early on, the cancer controlled me. It controlled how I felt, it controlled what I did and how I did it....Well guess what....F*CK THAT!!!
Am I angry or upset? Not at all ! I'm excited, please be excited with me. In about a month or so, I'm going to have a plate in my leg from my knee to my nuts sooooo I'm probably not going to be so uppity up, and jumpin' for joy - so please let me ride this as far I can.
As far as I know, I've been up front with you about this since my f*ck-up. You've got my word in front of everyone on this board...I will let you know if things change with me...OK?
I'm not going to leave you in the snowbank....like you did me
