Time for honesty & truth for a new beginning pt 2

[phbear316]

Jenny

sorry had to run for a minute.

As i was saying I have to be hopeful, I have to keep a positive outlook.

As i was saying about talking to mil this am, she told me she could not tell me, i told her i understood, but i have known for a long time. I just asked her and i know everyone is going to flip on me for saying this, if he does talk to her about us, i just want her to say to him, give her a chance, she does truly love you and really wants to work this out. She agreed to only bring it up if he talks to her. MIL says it is not going to be easy for him down there, they are all upset that i will not be there, mil has left all my stuff that i have left down there out in the bathroom and in the spare bedroom, wants h to miss me like i do.

He needs to go and miss me, I know not to expect a miracle upon his return, but maybe we can start moving into the right direction like going to couples councling, and more communication is a must.

I'm being selfish i hope he does not miss her or contact her. But i know he will, like you say i'm sure he will miss both of us. But i want him to miss me more.

I want to read the divorce busting book again, i started it a few wks ago for a second read thru, but did not finish. This is what i want to do this week. I also bought the new joel osteen book at costco, and i want to start reading that.

As far a communications i am to do my best and not really contact him, i want him to contact me. In my heart i know he will, but i also know to keep open minded for disappointment. If i don't hear from him by the end of the day, i will contact him via text. i feel he will contact me.

It seems like i will have tons of time to read but i still have to work thru the week, i have a little shopping to do, some cookies i wish to bake, and then its monday xmas eve and then tues xmas, wed back to work and thurs h will be home

This may sound wierd but now i am having anxiety about him coming home, were will we be?

bear