bh - i appreciate it. I really do. I didn't know how much of this you'd read. I know i need to follow through if i'm going to do it. I guess i was just thrown by his totally lack of participation. Normally if he wants me, then he'll lay there and wait for me, not just roll over and say goodnight. I'm used to doing alot of the work, especially if i initiated, but it's not normally like that. I appreciate the advice.

doing it halfway again and expecting it to go differently would be the definition of insanity... thanks! \:\)

For me, i can understand if its a need of his. That's why i'm willing to put aside how i feel about it and do it because it will make him happy. I was always the one that needed it and never got it (not as much as i wanted ;\) ), i don't want him to feel like that, so I'll do as much as i can for him.

If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown

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