I think I'm done

[ms ladybug]

I think what I'm upset about most is the loss of the man I married. Not the man he has become, but the one I married. I have a company Christmas party tonight and I really wanted him to come, of course he said, "no". But, thinking about it...we probably would have had a lousy time out together anyway. What I wanted was the man I married to come with me to this party. And...I often forget that he doesn't exist anymore. I still think he'll come back, but I need to realize that that's not likely.