peacetoday, thank you) i've been doing it all - pma, as if...it is hard but it seems to be " the best game in town") - h said on several occasions that it would be much easier for him if i would be creaming, crying, going crazy - i do not want to make it easy for him))))))))))))), do i?!))))))))))) being away, even w/out kids (i'll spend fun time in nyc with them anyway) is looking more and more appealing)
