F Hi sorry for your pain definitely a hard choice I understand the depression and have felt it as well Ive had to learn to override it and practice pma so with H, I started being moe upbeat it felt good and I got better now I am doing it for me I am going away for christmas with kids I did that purposely..to avoid H so If you cant get away act as if practice being upbeat its good for the kids to see mom getting stronger Your H will be attracted to it as well not to say we dont feel our grief in private , cry when we need to or seek IC to cope but the rest of the time we practice and we get better at it try to treat christmas as any day i know this is difficult good luck peace
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