Decided last night that I would just "lay out a thought" that I felt was important to say. In a way it was saying, yes I do love you and that I still want to be around you. I did not try to be clingy, just said my short piece and left it as that. W did not answer, but I could see the point hit home. Things have sloooowly been getting better and the "comment" did not cause any back pedaling. It might be very slow, but I think there might be some change a foot. Hopefully, I'm not wrong.
I hope all are doing well. Hopefully this new year coming up will be a change for the best for everyone. Perhaps, what's working best for me right now is that I am occasionally saying what I think, but I am also showing that either way it goes, I will deal with it. Of course daily prayer and study help. Every day I still look at what I am doing and see how I measure up both spiritually and DB wise. Some things are very well ingrained. I think it has made a better me.
