Trains don't run forever Fire goes out sometime Gotta tell you, baby We've come to the end of the line Pages of yesterday Fill this book of mine Gotta tell you, baby It is the end of the line I can't remember those good old days They are from a different time I gotta tell you, baby We've come to the end of the line
J. J. Cale End Of The Line lyrics
I think its time for a new thread because I am entering a new phase of my life. The lyrics above sum up pretty well how I feel right now. W called around to talk the other day. Had found a bigger place to live so she could share custody of D12. I was disappointed , however agreed with what she was proposing until I saw where she wanted to move too. I phoned her and said she could not have our Daughter living there ( it was tidy but in a bad area and with no yard at all), she said its all she could find. I asked if there was any rush to move out of where she was and she said no. So the plan is now that I will help her find a nicer place and help pay for it , hopefully closer to here and D's school. In return I get to stay in the family home until the Kids no longer need it. The boys stay with me and we share custody of D 50/50 . With a closer place my hope is that the boys can spend time there as well and it can almost become an extension of home for them if thats possible. So thats where we are headed and to be truthful I am very comfortable with that , the trade off being that this House will become my space , financialy it will be tough but thats the way of things I guess. I have even had "the talk" with the Boys where I have said that I need to get on with my life and that means I am not prepared to like life like a monk.
Is the door totaly closed ? no but its not open too far .
Will I keep DB'ing , of course, its second nature now anyway and it has realy been a success for us in that I am sure that has preserved enough of our relationship to enable us to co-parent in a healthy way.
I also know she is not totaly "gone" as there has been no talk of divorce at all. She has even neglected to tell close friends of hers that we are separated. But I am through trying to figure out what she does.
There will be challenges to come , and I will still visit this board . The only constant is change.
