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I know it is very hard to be positive this time of year.but you have to take baby steps. try to remember things that make you happy. That don't include W. Turn on some music and get lost in it. Smile at a stranger just because. It will make you smile. I know this is all very hard to do. I find myself getting lost in my thoughts all the time and they never seem to be happy ones. I wish I hope I cry and none of this is helping me. I try to find little positives. Like this one is corny but I smile at the fact that right now i don't have to watch Star Trek. H always watched it so I would go do something else. (of course i would rather watch it and have him here) But right now i don't so I try to put a positive spin on it. It's tiny but maybe you have something like that you could smile at. it all starts somewhere.

Anyways, i am here for you and am sending you hugs!!!! Write lots, it does help. Even if is looks like a muddled mess, better here than out your mouth to W.

Take Care of yourself!!!!!