Thanks Iwb - sound like you have pulled it together for your little girls and I am trying. Yes, the nights are very long - as you can see what time it is now. I lay down with my D and help her fall asleep about 8:00 and then I sleep until about 1:00 or 2:00 and then I'm up all night and day. Ohio mark - I was thinking that I should pretend he died but the hard thing about this is you constantly have contact with this person bec of your child and I am always have to going to hear whats going on in his life bec D6 and I are very close and she confides in me about her visits with H even if I dont ask and I feel I cant tell her not to tell me bec then she will feel she cant tell me about her feelings. I want every one to know yes I am smoking like a fiend and have begun to cut down - but absolutely not around my D - I go in the basement w/ the window open. I do have a treadmill sitting in the garage. I am going to try - thanks for your no nonsense advice - every one has given me such great advice and support - every day I check my threads and feel so much better after I hear from you guys - right now this site is what is keeping me going -
