I think I'm done

[ms ladybug]

I think it's pretty much over. H came over today to paint the kids room. I made a nice dinner when he was here and got everyone at the table. So, I go ask him if he's going to eat with us. He responds with, "go away." Later, after the kids go to bed, he tells me that he's done with me. He doesn't care anymore. He walks out the door, starts to lock the door, then opens it back up and tells me, "Don't get me anything for Christmas, because I'm not getting you anything, and I'm not filling your stocking this year." Then leaves. I'm sitting on the couch, nursing the baby, completely dumb struck, and say nothing. Just yesterday, he asks me if I want jewelry for Christmas and tells me that he hopes we fill each others stockings this year like we do every year.

Oh, and a side note, the whole time he was here painting, he was texting back and forth to his female co-worker who is "nice to him, and expects nothing from him". She expects nothing from him and he likes that! Well, damn, he's not the father of two of her kids, of course she expects nothing from him!

So, like I said, I'm sitting on the couch, nursing the baby, and crying. And I think, "what the hell am I doing?" I don't deserve this. I'll own up to all my mistakes that contributed to our marriage problems, but I can't allow myself to be treated like crap. I deserve better than this. I mean, he can't even put a slinky in my stocking?

I'll wait till the new year, but I've got the name and number of a really good lawyer.