is he too young for MLC?

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So I had a message on the house phone for my H today and decided that I would text him the info. When I went to text him I found a text on there from him. This is what it said. I am sorry. i miss my best friend everyday. Some days more than others. I just don't think i am getting better and I don't know what to do.

I completely broke down. i couldn't stop the tears if I tried. I sent him a text back with the info I had for him and I told him i wish i could fix all of this but i can't. I haven't heard from him since then. The info i sent him was about his C appointment tomorrow. Which is at the same time as mine. So I guess i'm a little nervous about having to see him. i don't know if he will show up because he just started his new job today.

I did start taking out X-mas stuff. My tree is up with lights, just no decorations yet. Maybe later tonight when I can't sleep.

Just a little bit of journalling again.

Thanks for listening!