Still sad but movin' on

[alamogirl]

I still miss the man I married. I still love him. He'll always live in my heart. But today H is a different person, I don't know him.

To be honest I am still in shock at times. It blows my mind that we are not together anymore, it's like something went wrong in the universe. We were supposed to be together forever.

Hey Monica, I know exactly how you feel. The other day my ex came by to get some furniture he left behind, he started fixing stuff around the house. Then he asked if he could wash his hands in the kitchen sink. When he was standing there, washing, it was like he never left. He looked so "normal" to be there.

I still can't believe we're divorced. It also blows my mind that we're not together anymore. He wants to be friends, but it's so hard because I still love him. Sometimes, I think that maybe I should accept his friendship, but what happens when he starts dating?

I've gotten on with my life. I have a good job, good co-workers, great friends. My siblings are all here in San Antonio. I'm in good health...I recently lost 37 lbs, and I'm hoping to lose another 20. What can I say...life is great, but I still miss my partner, companion, husband, best friend, and lover.

All my best,
alamogirl