Two weeks since my last post. This is the longest I have been absent from the boards for over a year. SD, thanks for dropping by. I have been busy with swimming, we are working out 2x a day much of the week and have had 6 meets in the last two weeks. Lots of late nights and early mornings. In general however, I think I just needed a break from thinking about my sitch. So far the apartment is still on hold, the current renter decided to go month to month. I have still not found homes for a horse or two. So I am still in the house. Maybe a twist of fate for the holidays, but who really knows. W has made less excuses to go see OM and has been putting some effort into the house, not so much the R. We have been doing a bit more together. We actually spent much of the past two weekends cleaning, organizing, decorating for Christmas, etc. It has almost felt like normal H and W stuff, with little affection. No R talk just existing and getting along. When she has left a couple of times, she has given me a complete run down of what she did or was doing, without me asking. We actually spent time together over the past two weekends. The other biggie, is that she accepted the offer to get in my family's gift exchange and said she may go. First to be around my family in over a year. No expectations or pressure on this. I am also hearing alot more "we" talk. All babysteps and positives, but there is a long row to hoe either way this finally ends up. She also got a Dr. Phil relationship rescue DVD from her SIL, not sure who prompted it. There is still no idea where the road leads, I am just remaining steady and confident in who I am. If/when the apartment opens I still plan to make the move, unless the OM sitch either dies a natural death or she decides on us. She is still texting him quite a bit, I assume since I hear her phone ringing at odd times of the night and she is off to see him tonight. But oh well, been there done that, it is her decision. I quit holding some things in, and showing more emotion when needed. Usually not as it relates to OM. It has had some positive effect. I think. The break from thinking has helped and I am much more centered. It also doesn't hurt that I am busy doing my own thing so much. I feel completely "as if" and detached for a few weeks.
