Jack, that's just it. I'm not DOING ANYTHING anymore except expecting him to be the man that I know that he is regardless of whether we are together or not.
And that Amy is the best fricken thing I have heard out of you. It's about f'in time you realized that paying for our sins does not mean giving everything we are to mend the mistakes.
You have paid your dues, you have done what you needed to do. Now it is time for you to start thinking about Amy again and not about him. If he turns back into that incredible man (which I believe he will by the way), then great, but if he doesnt, you move on and be the woman that you are.
Sometimes we get so caught up in paying for our errors that we forget that it takes two to tango. I used to absolutely hate the expression that two wrongs don't make a right, but the truth is, they don't. Yet we sit there and take so much from significant others because we feel that it is only fair considering all that we did. What a load of crap we put on our own shoulders Amy.
I have admired you for a very long time now Amy because of the strength you showed in acknowledging all that had happened and trying to rectify it throughout this time. But reality time, enough is enough sweetie. Take care of yourself again and let him take care of himself.
I honestly believe that if you do as you say here, the other things will fall in line. Your relationship with your child will come full circle and you will find your own happiness. In fact, at some point, just as you had to choose, your H may have to choose whether he wants to be part of your glorious life, or sit on teh sidelines and watch it pass by him.
I for one, like where you have come to Amy, and I am glad you posted. you have been in my thoughts quite a bit over the last week and I am very glad to see that you have not headed down the road of despair that stood firmly in front of you. Instead you have chosen the path of dignity and strength. Good for you.....
You know we are here whenever you need us, and I for one am looking forward to seeing Amy blossom.
