One foot in front of the other....

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Thanks Lwb.. Im going to keep on placing D as #1. Her mom might be "in love" but Im going to look past that and focus only on my daughter.

I keep going back and forth between wanting her back and not caring anymore. I really hope I can fully not care soon, so much easier to cope.

W keeps calling my mom to tell her anything positive about our daughter that she can, obviously trying to convince my mom to buy into her shenangians. I know she needs the validation from someone that she isnt such a bad person, not going to get that from me.

I really think this is who my W really is, I keep thinking back on our R and so many times I wondered why I stuck it out this long. Almost all my friends have told me that I could do so much better and that W is a shadey person, I just couldnt see her in that light. But now that I reflect back, Im starting to beleive that they are right. She is simply a selfish person that was never taught how to have a lasting meaningful relationship. I confided in my best friend (knows us both very well) that I was scared she would go on to marry OM and be happy while I sit here and hurt. He responded by saying she doesnt know how to be happy, it will never happen.

He said...sure she's in love now but that wont last and OM will get a healthy dose of her bipolar illness and wonder why in the hell he moved here.