WAW staying, I'm leaving to give her space..(2)

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P.S. - I was typing last post when I got all the replys. COG, you are wonderful my man! You tell me what I need to know and how you say it I can relate to. I apologize for focusing on W and not me in my last post. This is sort of 'journaling' for me as well. I type up events and read them back to see if I can learn something about myself and the situation. I sometimes see things that I did wrong (or right) after typing it/reading it back to myself. I sometimes see things that I didn't see when it happened. That's what I do. I know I need to stop focusing on W but it is the holidays & I feel like I'm in jail (basically am). If this S does go far past Feb, my situation and attitude will shift dramatically. I'm just 'doing time' right now and watching life just pass me by 'through my barred window', while I'm 'handcuffed' to this apt. I feel very helpless, all I can do is pray, project the right attitude, act appropriately, and hope it's enough to make a difference right now..

Thanks again, COG. Please continue the words of wisdom when you see fit. You better believe I'm praying for my W & I think you understand EXACTLY what I am feeling/talking about/going through right now.