I am hopeful and will ride this out

[soul_mate]

Kerry, I am going to say what I think is best for you sorry if I come across as mean.

I think she is walking over you and you are making it really easy for her. Forget about the kids for a minute and just think about you and your W. I think in a D you have a really good shot at your kids or at the least 50/50 joint so put the kids aside for a minute. You need to come across strong to your W not as someone that will be waiting for her and instantly ready to forgive whatever it is she does. You are coming across to her as weak and this is not attractive. It is time you stop talking to her about your feelings and the R she does not deserve to have the closeness with you right now. Give yourself a lot of space from her. Act as if you are moving on with your life and do it. Your trip to Mexico is a good start at this, but also do stuff without the kids. If you really want your W back then you need to make yourself attractive to her make yourself someone she wants to get back with. GAL, Make yourself hard to get, do 180s, take care of yourself, take care of your kids. You can't just do these things for a couple weeks and then go back to talking to her about the R etc.

I am not saying be mean to her, but be indifferent towards her like you will get on with your life without her. This is the only thing you can do right now that will make any difference I know it is hard, but keep working at it.