Well a bit of journaling here, feeling a bit blue today and I can't seem to shake it. I dropped the kids off last night with my wife and after that the my place was just too quiet for comfort. It was so, so empty without those two running about, being loud, arguing and playing with one another. Two things that made it even more difficult was that we had our usual Sunday night family dinner and it felt SO good sitting there with them. Then as I left I heard those questions again. Oh how I hate them!
Work is a bit slow today and it's very quiet as well which isn't helping me. I'm also feeling sad about going to the school Christmas pageant tonight. I can't wait to see the girls but then again I know I'll just be going home alone. To boot I'll probably hear "Daddy why can't you come home now" or "Daddy why do you have to leave?" Oh how that really gets me when D11 asks me that! The look on her face combined with the tone in her voice...
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
