WAW staying, I'm leaving to give her space..(2)

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I may be doing well, but still having a VERY hard time. W showed up late this morning & in horrible mood. I had everything ready except S6 lunch (nothing I could do). I made an attempt at offering some leftovers I had and W acted like I was an idiot. The digital photo frame I spent hours on this weekend, she practically forgot about it. I said, I guess you don't want the digital frame? W blurted yes. I quickly packed in in box (I was almost in tears) as she hurried out the door. She was here a total of 5 min.

On her way out, W mentioned something happened at work and she almost quit this morning, that's why she was late. I asked W what happened, she replied 'it doesn't matter, I gotta go'. (W was almost in tears. W's reply of 'it doesn't matter' is really getting to me, she's been using it alot lately and I keep telling her IT DOES MATTER!)

I called home phone after she left and left message that I was sorry about S6 lunch & if she wanted to talk about what happened at work to give me a call. W called me after taking kids to school. I asked her if she wanted to tell me what happened. W said she didn't because I'd get mad. I replied, what is going on? W said that there was a rumor going around work that W is trying to f*** someone(anyone) and there were people complaining about conversations that were going on at at workplace to her boss. This is where I almost lost it but held it together.

In summary, a few co-workers were 'joking' around (not serious) that my W needed to get f***ed and they were making it their 'mission' to 'hook her up'. W said it was pretty much a big 'joke' to make her laugh and feel better. Some other co-workers complained about this and some other things. I told W I wasn't mad at her and it sounded like a bunch of juevenile s***. I told her I am a little upset though, I get frustrated because these people that are 'joking' about this haven't even met me and I don't see the 'joke'. I tried to listen and validate how she felt (W was pretty embarrased and angry about the whole thing). W still expresses that nothing has ever happened and that she is not interested in doing any of the sort. I'm trying to trust her (I think I do), but her 'friends' are really not helping our situation at all!

W stated she wasn't going to the 'formal' work party because she had to go alone and didn't want people trying more of the same ('hooking her up'). I really wish that I could figure out a way to go to that with her, I know she was really looking forward to going to that 'formal' but she's scared to go alone (without a 'date'), W stated she was still going out on Thurs, though. I was pretty calm and understanding on the phone with W, but I was 'screaming' inside! I really don't know what to think about that whole conversation and situation she got herself into (it's almost unbelievable)! It sure makes me feel like crap. I want to f*** my wife, not someone else! I'm pretty frustrated at the moment. Now, I'm even more untrusting of her 'friends' at work and their 'intentions'....

Conversation shifted to xmas present shopping. W was looking to do some, I offered myself to watch kids tonite so she could go but she ended up going this morning while kids were at school. I guess that kills the excuse to have her come over and visit tonight. I certainly didn't want to tell her flat out that I missed her this weekend and I wanted to see her. So, I'll try to deal with it on my own. Right now, I won't see her 'til Thur night when I watch kids so she can go out 'bar-hopping' with her 'friends' from work. Thur night will be a huge test, I'm going to be a mess that night after this latest news, I hope I can still act ASIF and hide my pain. Wondering what W is feeling/thinking...