Thank you Jak...this has got to be one of the worst weekends I have had. I feel like I have been hit by a truck. My body is sore and its all emotional.

D18 may be needing something. That is for sure. I agree about not talking about him and being happy when they are around. She and the others need me to be stable.

I haven't heard from H since yesterday morning. He sent one of his friendly texts, but i was so engulfed in my daughter's situation I didn't even bother with it. I didn't care and what a good feeling that was.

Weekdays are definately easier. I know he will be sober and having to face the grim reality of the situation. Weekends is when he can escape and not think...I want him to think and have it hit him what he is doing.

Me: 46 FWS: 36
Married and Divorced 4/07, Pregnant 7/07,False R 7/07
Baby Girl born 3/08
Kicked him out because OW: 7/08
5/10 He realized what he had and lost.
Moved home! REMARRIED 3/14/11!!