I think that you are doing a good job, and you have to do what feels right for you! You can't hang on in the hopes that your W may come back, go and see what else the world has in store for you, and enjoy it!!
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!