Love, PAIN and the whole crazy thing!

[mcol]

Ok...this should be the last post to update you on the sitch...

W and I had a very heartfelt conversation last night. She said that she does not feel like she can trust me after what I did. I have validated her feelings because...she is right. I feel like an idiot and should never have substituted my emotions for good ole fashion conversation. It is my prayer that with time she will understand that the letters she wrote and the corresponding activity with the OM hurt me so bad that I did not feel we had anything to talk about.

A new development is that I have started getting back on AOL and conducting IM sessions with my W. This morning I realized that these sessions was originally how my wife and I met. There were some very old feelings about how much I enjoyed talking to her online and I believe that this interaction will be one of the critical elements to getting her trust and her emotions back online with me.

Thanks ahead of time for helping me...I know I have flip flopped pretty quickly but it is because I have faith and trust in my wife's honesty which has been a bedrock foundation of our marriage.