Today was a weird day.

W came over earlier than planned, so we went out to lunch with D together. The weather was awful and there was a wait at the restaurant, but we got there eventually. Yesterday W told me she went Christmas shopping in the morning, but today she told me she went to a car auction with OM instead. Later she told me she had lunch with him too (although she paid for it...). I got a little annoyed during lunch about it, but I brushed it off after a few minutes - I've no idea why she told me all of that. W asked if I didn't want her around, so I told her that I wanted her around and that I wasn't feeling too good (which is true).

When we drove home D fell asleep, so we talked for a while in the car... Mostly her talking about OM - About how he doesn't make good decisions, that his gf is an idiot and that he only likes to spend time with my W because she reminds him of his Grandma who brought him up. Sounds like such a wonderful relationship they have. I'm totally past caring about it anymore.

W and I spent a couple of hours moving boxes out of the attic while D took a nap, which I think was pretty hard for her. I cut my back up pretty badly on a nail, so W cleaned it up and took care of it for me. I messed around a little with me, and she just laughed. Called me sweetie and stuff, then when I hugged her afterwards I grabbed her butt and she didn't say anything bad about it. We watched a movie afterwards, then D woke up so we played with her for a bit.

W started talking about leaving because of the weather, but she didn't do anything. She said she didn't want anything for dinner, so I cooked dinner for D and me, plus extra for W - Guess what?!? W ate it anyway \:\) We gave D a bath and played more and watched TV. After D went to bed, I dug out the drive way and cleaned off W's car for her, then she drove home. Usual hug/kiss/ILY when she left.

I talked to her on IM when she got home - I asked her to let me know she got home safe. She talked a little, but I mostly got one word answers. I thanked her for coming over today, and she asked if I was annoyed with her - I guess she noticed more than I thought when we were out. I tried to smooth things over a little, but she just seemed really unhappy. She went to bed around 9:40, which is really early for her - When we were together she usually went to bed between 11 and midnight. She is definitely behaving a little differently. She doesn't stay logged onto IM all day and night like she used to, hasn't checked her e-mail since Thursday and she is unusually critical of herself about so many things. I really try to encourage her and try to boost her self-esteem, but I'm not sure if it really does anything for her.

I was very tempted to have her stay over tonight, but she didn't have anything for work tomorrow, so she'd have to go home anyway. I mentioned earlier today that if the weather got really bad, maybe she would get stuck here, and she just asked me if I had a couple of movies she wanted to watch.

I wish I understood what was going on in her head right now. She just doesn't seem to find enjoyment in much of anything anymore.