Long and Bumpy Road 2be continued...

[Startingover2]

Thanks Jenny...I have been following your thread. Its so hard to bring innocent little babies into this.

This has been one of the worst days of my life. One good thing is I haven't even bothered thinking about H at all today but I don't want this agony anymore.

My kids were with their dad last night. My oldest daughter (18), who has been miss dependable, responsible, happy sends me a text at 9am telling me she left her car at the train station and was moving to Bakersfield (3 hours away) to be with this boy who she claims to love. She says she is going to live with him and his family and is going to get a job, etc. She says she loves her dad and I and that she will be happy.

I freak out. I call her dad. He flips out. We try calling and calling her and she won't pick up. I am freaking out at this point. She finally answers and her dad talks to her and he ends up talking to this boys mother who condoned the whole flipping thing saying they were in love and 18 blah blah blah. She agreed to meet us so her dad and I drove 3 hours to Bakersfield but she was saying she wasn't coming home on the phone. I am bawling my eyes out trying to figure out how we were going to do this.

We end up meeting with her and this boy and explain this is not the way to do stuff and she agreeably gets in the car and comes home. No fighting, no struggle, nothing. Almost like she was wanting to be rescued. We asked her some questions on the way home which she answered but then talked about random things like nothing was wrong. Like today never happened. It was wierd. We asked her if it was about this boy or wanting her independence...she said she wanted independence and to live on her own. This was not the way to do it. She had no money, no car and was at this boy's and his families mercy. I felt sick worrying about what could have happened to her. She told no one here, no friends or anyone.

It was the most horrific day of my entire life. I thought she was gone forever. Not sure where we go from here with her.

I felt incredibly guilty. I hope that my sucky life and drama with H has not pushed her away. It has been a rollercoaster up and down and I know she is sick of it and him. Maybe this is a wakeup call to me.

I need to go rest. I have been having mild contractions for the past few hours from all the stress. When I found out I was literally hyperventilating.

Thanks for listening.