OK I need some help here. First some background, Friday we had a blow up about, you guessed it money. We have insurance due this week on our cars, our home and our vacation home. Sadly our vacation home insurance must be paid up front and it's a small fortune. So there was a big misunderstanding over what I could pay. I had said I could pay some but not all on our vacation home. The rest could be paid monthly.
Having been unemployed for the last 5 months and only returning to work 3 weeks ago means I have little. I do have a mutual fund but not a lot there and I view that as money I don't have, funds for the future or serious times of need. In the end I liquidated some of it to pay but I'm pretty much broke after that. I now have zero savings and a lawyer demanding to get paid along with a few other bills. Grr...just when with the new job I felt like given about 2 months I'd have my financial feet firmly planted.
So we had this big fight and of course it put her back months with regards to our relationship because I was not being responsible or dependable. To this point I was under the impression that we were really heading in the right direction given things she's done and said. Dang it I'm just trying to get a good foothold so I can definitely be responsible and dependable!
To top it off our girls were with me this week and we mainly had a great week but for them with Christmas approaching they are struggling a bit emotionally with the situation. I heard on more than one occasion the question why Daddy couldn't come home. Then tonight I heard "why do you have to leave?" when I dropped them off.
Here's my challenge, dealing with the welling up of anger, frustration and bitterness. I really get worked up inside seeing my kids this way and with the bouncing about with the situation. I have no idea how I dealt with it before and really am not sure how to deal with it now. It's not anger all the time but more these slow build ups. Right now I just shut my mouth and try to put on a smile but d@mnit does she not see how all of this is ripping everyone up inside?!?!
Last edited by catfan; 12/17/0701:17 AM.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
