Trying to Cope, but It's Too Hard

[stacy22]

I am not doing well at all this whole thing is killing me inside. I can't help but fall apart when I see him, he is my world along with my daughter. I really wish I could get a grip on this whole thing. I just feel totally out of control. My daughter is sad I'm sad. I had to change schools for my girl so she could be closer to me, and not miss so much. My H still feels the same and feels like he is happier than he has ever been without us. Will this ever go away. I believe in God and I am trying to put it all in his hands, and I feel like he isn't moving fast enough. My husband has been a christian for most of his life, and know is renouncing his faith along with his marriage, and only going to church because his daughter asks him too. I just want him to come home. I can't tell you how heart broken I am and how unbeliveably sad I feel for my daughter, she asks her dad everyday if he will come home, and he says, sorry I just don't want to. I'm sorry, but I'm just venting. I don't no what the hell I'm doing anymore, and this sucks, it really sucks. What should I do. I've read every book imaginable, and I can't even get him to see what I have learned about myself to make my marriage better, because he just doesn't want to. What kind of selfishness is that. What kind of person would leave his family, because he thinks he will be happier without them. I have never been unfaithfull and I love the man with all my heart, and I still love him even though he has done everything possible to make feel like crap.
Please help me get myself on track, and tell me their is hope for someone who has convinced himself that he is better off without us. I need some hope. I need some prayer and I need some words of wisdom.