sheeshe willwin, that's one LONG post! lots of smiley's though, so, a nice read all in all.
i couldn't find your "I Have Won" post
i think you're an awesome dude in exacting your own recovery and coming to a place of common sense and happiness. i hope for you, that if and when you get your xw back, or maybe even another person, that she's worked as hard as you in intropection and self awareness ~ wouldn't that be the R of the century? good luck with that willwin